July 11, 2005

• Synchronicity or  Incredible Coincidences

  
  

  Did I ever tell you the story of a book called "Is It Ever Normal to be Crazy?"  Well, many years ago (about 22 years) my first pregnancy ended in stillbirth.  It was a very traumatic experience, as you may well imagine.  Also, so many years ago, people were not so sensitive to the needs of a mother who has lost a baby.  I was also part of my hippie new age order and at the time we believed that you were somehow responsible for everything that happened to you.  I would say that 98% of the members of the order were under 25 and never had anything bad happen to them.  Anyway, I stuffed all the pain from the loss and continued on with my "new age" life.  Four years I had my Meagan.  When she was about 2 1/2, I realized that I was coming apart at the seams.  Life was unbearable even though I had the one great love of my life, Meagan.  My husband who spends a great deal of his time at the library said that he was walking down one of the aisle when this book practically jumped out at him.  "Is it Ever Normal to be Crazy?"  I was just looking on the Internet and can not find the book.  However, this book saved my life.  OT brought it home to me and I stayed up all night reading it.  Yes, it is normal to feel like you are going crazy when you lose a child.  This was a life that you carried inside you and made great plans for your life together.  You need to have time to grieve and do all the closing, loving things you do when someone you love dies.  How freeing that book was.  I joined a support group for families who have experienced pregnancy loss.  Nevertheless, I learned a lot about caring about others especially when death is involved.    Well, anyway, the book almost jumping off the shelf was Synchronicity.

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