June 30, 2006
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An experience that let me know how really unimportant I am in the scheme of things.
I have a dear cousin who has a brain tumor that is inoperable. I haven't seen T in many many years but we were so close when we were children. I wrote him a short letter asking for his to reply so that we might at least keep up with each at the end of our lives. Well, I haven't heard from him yet. That is not the experience, though.
His brother (younger) lives about 20 miles from my apartment and I called him to say hello and ask about T. What a shock I had. I had left him a voice message asking him to call me and letting him know who I was and where I lived. I called him later in the evening and asked him if he knew who I was. Guess what? He said no is such a flat voice that I was concerned that he wasn't who I thought he was. I told him exactly how we were related and how T and I used to give the younger ones such a hard time when we would play. Thought it would get a good laugh. All I got was silence. Hmmm! Well, then I asked about T. He said that the last he heard T was in remission and that was back in February. Whoa! This sounds like a really close knit bunch. Well, I thanked him for the information and said goodbye.
I was a bit crushed. How could someone that I cared about and played with as a child not remember me. My god, aren't I the center of the universe? Guess not his universe. Well, it was a bit humbling and it was a great lesson.
I am just a speck of Light in a great Universe of Lights. Comforting on a spiritual plane but ego deflating on the Earth plane.
Remember me my friends as I struggle to remember each of you with love and blessings. zera
Comments (2)
Wow, I know how it is. I don't keep up with my extended family, either. Evidently the Swiss or German Swiss folks once in America forget to stay connected with their roots. Sigh. Too bad....
re your last post - It can be quite a revelation - I keep up with many of my extended family, am the one that does most of the connecting, and sometimes feel as if it is all coming from me and "out of sight out of mind" comes into play with them, and then something happens and I know this is not so. But you did not connect since he was very young, so I guess he moved on and did not feel any connection any more. He may be family, but this sounded like a case of that saying "there for a season...." I love that one and try to keep it in mind when I lose connections to people I have loved and enjoyed over the years who no longer want to keep up any contact. (((HUGS)))
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