May 21, 2004

  • Here I sit as patiently as possible waiting for a customer service rep with my bank to come on the line.  Hmmmm!  I could complain about the lack of good customer service these days.  I could complain about the fact the employers are requiring less and less staff to do much much more.  But, I won't.  It is Friday and I just got paid.  The temperature at 7 am is 66 degrees (I could complain about this too, but . . . ). 


    I just read a beautiful little story in a journaling magazine about a confrontation with a hummingbird.  The writer, Dorothy Randall Gray, has such a beautiful way with words.  Her reflections on the experience lifted my spirits.  It helped me to realize why I choose to write here at Xanga.  I write because I want to communicate with myself and with others.   I know for a fact that my first years here at Xanga were spent trying to sort through a bushel load of "sins" and that somewhere along this trail of writing, I have put that bushel down.  And to my surprise, I do not want to go back and find it.  There is so much happening here and now to experience and then share. 


    If anyone has recognized themselves in any of my stories, please forgive the ramblings of a confused soul.  Always remember that these are MY thoughts and may or may not have anything to do with reality.  And if you happen to be related to me and know I am talking about you, I give you two choices.  Pretend you do not know me and read the entries as though they are written by a perfect stranger who is working out her life.  Or, don't read my journal.  I refuse to say I am sorry for my thoughts.  They are mine after all.


    I will say I am sorry for not writing more frequently.  I have had to take a hard look at how much I wanted to continue journaling at Xanga.  I awoke this morning to the fact that I must continue writing.  It is my only way to truly communicate with the world.  And I MUST communicate after so many years of hiding inside.  I miss my friends and their comments on life.  Sooooooooooooooooo, I'm back! 


    Thought for the day:  Don't let the turkeys get you down!  Love zera

Comments (2)

  • Good, and don't let your absence hold you back. Welcome back to life!

  • (((HUGS))) Keep on writing whenever you feel you have something to put out and share. You do not owe anyone anything, but if you feel the need then you owe yourself to indulge in this.
    Communication is the key word here, and we all need that. Something I keep trying to tell myself by the way, is to stop hiding what really goes on inside me and how I think and believe, just incase my listeners are offended. I accept them, so they had better do the same for me, otherwise it is only a one way street, and I am not being fair to myself. (((HUGS)))

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